Ya know I was going to come tonite but I dont need an explanation.  I dont need to know what you found out b/c I know the truth and thats all that matters to me.  Kristi and JM  thank you for fighting for me and beleiving what I had to say that means a lot to me.  Ricky Joe and Eric  you've been wonderful through all of this thank you for everything.  Davison Justin and Zach yall are great guys and dont need to ever change!!!  Muffin well youre my Muffin and thats all that needs to be said.  The rest of you really hurt me by the fact that you didnt beleive me but we are entilted to our own opinions so thats fine think what you want.  No hard feelings what so ever if any of yall ever need anything please feel free to call or if you want to hang out Im more than willing!  Ricky Ill be at NOPI so I plan on seeing you there with bells on!  To be honest if I would have showed up tonite it wouldnt have been a pretty thing and I would have said things that didnt need to be said so I figured that its easier to leave things alone and not burn brigdes like some people already have.  Yall have been my family through everything but Im not going to deal with this and I shouldnt have to.  Ive been through a lot in the past year and most have been very understanding but others havent and thats fine I cant expect everyone to be.  Whining aside I hope that the club does great and yall stay together for a long time but always beleive your members over people that nothing about that person or whats going on. I guess what Im saying is that Im out and I would have been even if yall all had said you were sorry. 

well if thats how you feel, peace out. we, as execs, were doing our job AS EXECS. we were going to give you the good news about our findings, but you, yes YOU, didnt give us that chance. shawna, dont take it personally. if i find something fishy about something, no matter WHO says it, i'm going to look into it. you were NOT singled out. an issue came up and we tried to deal with it. other people stuck their noses in it, other people gave their opinions which got everybody else all riled up with false information, and that threw us a curve ball in that we not only had the issue to deal with, we had to then satisfy all of the phone calls, all the text messages and ALL the "wtf's" we got from the members. that made the job just a little bit harder. i'm sorry you look at me like the bad guy, but you know what, das cool. i can live with that. have fun with whatever you decide to do.

no hard feelings, hope we can still be friends. sorry if i came across as a dick.

If me defending myself was wrong then by all means its all my fault.  I was just expressing my opinion about how I wish that yall had listened to me instead of jumping to conclusions thats all.  You handled it the way you felt you needed to and I dont agree with that but once again its my opinion.  If you don't listen to your members how are going to run a successful club?  Im not trying to be mean at all but you said that it didn't matter what the others thought but I think that it does.  Once again that's my opinion.  I didnt start any "drama" nore was a part of it.  I left things alone and I will continue to leave things alone.  I really dont see how any of this was my fault but oo well... I also didnt ever say that it was your fault either.  I havent ever had a problem with you but obviously you have one with me or else you wouldnt be jumping down my throat with everything I try and explain.  I have already said that I didnt have any hard feelings toward yall and I plan on keeping it that way unless things are said to or about me that shouldnt be.  I honestly dont see why anyone would say anything so lets keep it that way.

 

Joshy what you said really hurt and right now it still does  I still luv you dont get me wrong but at the moment I need time to think about a lot of things.  Ill give you call sometime next week though.

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If me defending myself was wrong then by all means its all my fault.  I was just expressing my opinion about how I wish that yall had listened to me instead of jumping to conclusions thats all.  You handled it the way you felt you needed to and I dont agree with that but once again its my opinion.  If you don't listen to your members how are going to run a successful club?  Im not trying to be mean at all but you said that it didn't matter what the others thought but I think that it does.  Once again that's my opinion.  I didnt start any "drama" nore was a part of it.  I left things alone and I will continue to leave things alone.  I really dont see how any of this was my fault but oo well... I also didnt ever say that it was your fault either.  I havent ever had a problem with you but obviously you have one with me or else you wouldnt be jumping down my throat with everything I try and explain.  I have already said that I didnt have any hard feelings toward yall and I plan on keeping it that way unless things are said to or about me that shouldnt be.  I honestly dont see why anyone would say anything so lets keep it that way.
 
Joshy what you said really hurt and right now it still does  I still luv you dont get me wrong but at the moment I need time to think about a lot of things.  Ill give you call sometime next week though.

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shawna, you know better than that. as rich said, opinions are just that. opinions. not facts. we as execs took the facts before anything else. as for you not starting any drama, you called jm, knowing full well he'd cave in to crying eyes. he's my boy and all, but he's a wuss when it comes to talking to girls. he and i have already had that convo. i'm not trying to jump down your throat, i'm just trying to get you to see our side of the situation. that is all. look at the situation for what it is. also, as for members stating their opinions, i never said they couldn't. i just said they didnt know all the info that we did, thus couldnt actually form an educated opinion simply on the basis that they didnt know everything about the situation.

I actually called JM b/c it was the only number I had at the time.